As I sit here typing this message I am angry with myself and searching for an answer as to why I have become such a people pleaser lately. Seriously I cannot say no to people and I find myself caring way too much what others think of me :( Why is it that when I take my focus off God I shift it back onto myself and I become obsessed with pleasing people when I should be worried about being a good and faithful servant. Lately I've been so busy that my devotions have fallen out of step and my quiet time well it's back to being my drive to work instead of an actual set time. Don't get me wrong my word for the year is SERVE and I want to be in service to people in anyway I can, however I don't think this means putting myself last and sacrificing my free time to the point I become burnt out!
Recently I agreed to help with a cake I had no interest in doing, I agreed to have a make up cake class with one student, I agreed to a dinner I didn't really want because it was what someone else wanted, I can name numerous other occassions where I chose to play the people pleaser instead of standing up for myself. ARGH!! Why do I do this?
Is anyone else a people pleaser? Does anyone have any tips on becoming more assertive with your opinions and why can't I say NO?!!