Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Tuesday tiredness, and a final decision

Well today is Tuesday and I have to work until 9:00PM yet again. Things aren't that bad I know coming up soon is a 3 day weekend, and oh my goodness am I ready for it. I can't wait for a day when I can sleep in I haven't done that in so long.

Anyway today for some reason is a very tiring day I've had a headache since I woke up that I just can't seem to shake. Jeremy and I took full advantage of me not working late yesterday and went to the gym. Which was nice we're trying to fit in a more regular work out schedule but it's very hard when I work late two days in a row. I made a decision last night to make health and fitness a priority in my life and not just an inconvenience. I truly do enjoy going to the gym once I get there. So from this point forward I will not make excuses for going to the gym.

I pray as we prepare for the end of the year that it is a good time and that we enjoy our Holidays.

September is fast approaching which means so is the fall!!!

More later....
Mrs. A

Monday, August 25, 2008

exhausted, and ready for a break.

I am so tired of work it has completely drained me. I am trying very hard to stay positive but it is hard when all I really want is a break. They've taken away our internet access so I've resorted to lugging my lap top to and from work with me just so that I have internet access on my breaks. It's completey ridiculous I am a chair of a charity event I cannot be without internet access. To make matters worse my phone isn't working I feel completely cut off from the outside world. I feel tired and I want to just crawl away and hide for a week or two.

I feel blocked at every turn of the corner when it comes to the charity work I do. I try to do things on my own and get told it's not good enough or it's not right. It's irritating to say the very least. I feel like I'm the underdog who's got something to prove and it's getting to the point I don't want to stress anymore.

I have a million things to do and no time to do them. I need to set up my office in the back room so that I can actually work on the stuff I need to at home it's hard right now there's just not space.

I hate this out of control feeling and I seriously need to get things under control.

Sorry for the downer post I just feel like I'm running in circles and getting no where.

Mrs. A

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Wednesday=thursday for me!

yep that's right I am oh so off work on Friday. woo hoo I'm so excited about that. Even though I have to work on Saturday being off on Friday totally makes up for it.
So I only have one more work day left.

I was genuinely sad when the temperature gage read 93 degrees today. I am so ready for cool weather and the fall. I'm getting a little impatient a few of the office fronts in the area I work have got their fall decorations up and it makes me excited everytime I see it. I don't know what it is about the fall that I adore so much.

Monday proved to be a pretty bad day so bad I blogged about it and then immediately deleted it because I felt bad for such negativity. Tuesday proved to be better but not great I still found myself in tears most of the day. Somedays I think tears are necessary for me they are a cleansing process a letting go of hurt feelings, and conscious effort to say no more will I let this affect me. We had a great chicken stir fry dinner and over the past year I have become increasingly more confident in my cooking abilities. I'm not perfect but no one is I embrace my imperfections even when it results in mushy rice. :).

I am in great need of more fellowship with God please pray for me that I find Him!

Monday, August 11, 2008

August Rain, wine education, and radio hour

heh what a random blog title but it's all things I experienced this weekend.

I actually had a very lovely weekend even if it started out with work. I played outside with my missy girl. Read about many different aspects of wine. Since Jeremy and I have recently decided we would like to try some wine we have been reading up on all the facts so we can make informed decisions. Enjoyed the August morning rain that is a signal that fall is on it's way I absolutely cannot wait for Fall it is my most favorite time of year. I love the smells of apple cider, pumpkin spice, and vanilla, I adore the weather and the feelings of a fresh new start, and I love the hustle bustle that begins as we prepare for the holiday season.We ended our lovely sunday with radio hour before bed which was a nice relaxing way to end the weekend.

Now I'm back at work and unhappy as ever. I've recently found out someone I thought was a friend has been saying really mean things about me. This hurts and makes me want to curl into a ball with a hot cup of apple cider and a good book and forget the world. Unfortunately I can't do that since I'm here til 9pm so I'm drinking my apple cider at my desk and trying to remember that I should display Christ's love and not avoid these individuals. It's so hard to work in an environment with such negative people but I will persevere and try to stay positive.

Yesterday's church experience was nothing abnormal but nothing truly exciting I wish my faith was more on fire and I can't wait to start working on piano pieces with Gari on Monday mornings.

so to sum up:
Our weekend was fairly relaxing, we got our chores done, we did a little Bible study, we read good books, and I am anxiously awaiting the fall and all the good things that seem to always come with it.

More later,

Mrs. A

Thursday, August 7, 2008


Well I'm trying to get back into blogging regularly because it's sort of a form of meditation for me. Anyway as I have stated before I have a love/hate relationship with Wednesdays. I love wednesdays for the church time and time I get to spend with my Savior in prayer, especially now that my work has me working 12-9 the first two days of the week it makes for a short week after Monday and Tuesday but getting through monday and Tuesday is a nightmare and of course no chores get done or anything at home on Monday and Tuesday. I hate wednesdays because it always seems like I get more things that need to be done before Saturday on my plate.

Anyway church last night was good but a bit awkward if I might say so since there are some people who are completely avoiding me it seems. That's ok I can't focus on that I just choose to love them that much more and to continue in my quests to build up the youth group. I cannot wait for next Sunday.

Work is still work it's not my passion and not what I'd be doing with my life if money was of no concern. But alas it is for now. Someday I know I'll get to live my true dreams I must continue to believe that or I'd be a perpetually depressed person.

(side note: I gave myself a manicure last night and I can't stop admiring my pretty fingers today!)

Tonight is gym night and I have to say I've been feeling real guilty about going to the gym because we're not going enough ever since my schedule changed I haven't been able to get there as much as I like I hope that changes. My diet sucks and I'm out shape again I feel like I'm starting all over. UGH!!!

Anyway a few of my goals for August 2008 are as follows

drink water
get to the gym twice a week
keep up with morning prayer time
have a grateful and open heart

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

OK not entirely

My stupid camera is still messed so still can't post all my freakishly awesome pictures from Relay 2008 I'm so dang mad!!!!!!

Ok onto the topic at hand I don't entirely hate my job just the gossipy rumor mill that tends to occur. I had lunch with a certain male co-worker mind you we are both happily married and now there are two women in the office who insist there is something going on between us in reality we both just needed someone to vent to about work frustrations that day. I'm of the thought that if nothing's going on there's no good reason not to be friends with guys. I'm friends with lots of guys my husband knows he doesn't care he trusts me and I trust him I mean for heaven's sake he works in an office full of women. So that lead to the whole I hate my job post because I felt like I spent the entire day defending my marriage over a stupid lunch I don't feel I shouldn't be allowed to be friends with this very nice person in fact Jeremy and I would really like to hang out with both he and his wife sometime soon.

Anyway we are starting praise and worship next Sunday and I couldn't be more thrilled about it. Although our youth group is small I'm going by the thought "if

We finally sat down together and calculated it up if we continue to make the huge payments we're making to all our debts we will be debt free in May 2009!!!!!!

That's so exciting for me. I hate feeling like I am a slave to money.

So life is good I can't believe we are a mere 2 months and a 15 days from celebrating our one year Wedding anniversary. People always told me when I was engaged that your first year of marriage is the hardest in some aspects I completely agree with that merging households, lifestyles, and finances is no picnic. But then there are all the wonderful moments and honestly having someone to hold me as I fall asleep at night makes up for all those frustrating times. I do think married life gets easier as you get used to it but I also loved all the new experiences that came with it. I love my husband more today than when I said I DO 10 months ago. You learn so much more about a person when you share your whole life with them and I can't wait to continue learning about my wonderful amazing man.

more later.

Mrs A