Monday, June 6, 2011

stay at home mommyhood

So I've now been at home with my baby for a few weeks. Life as I know it has definitely changed my boss is no longer an adult but a sweet 3.5 month old. No she's not really my boss but sometimes I feel like since we feed on demand around here. My first fews days at home were completely surreal and I wasn't sure what to do with myself, but by the end of the week I was starting to get the hang of it. I learned that I'm probably not going to be tackling a whole lot of big projects for a while but I can do small things  while Carys naps, I've also learned that I need a mom's group or some form of adult communication during the day at least twice a week. I've learned that netflix is my BFF for something to watch while nursing, and I've learned that I'm not super mom. My house isn't spotless, dinner isn't always on the table when Mr. A gets home, and some days I don't get out of my PJ's until way too late in the day. I've also learned that this is all ok. I'm only human and learning my new role is taking some time but it's a great learning experience and I'm really enjoying spending my days with Carys.

I'm a worrier by nature and I tend to beat myself up if things don't go exactly as planned. I did it when my birth plan went down the drain after learning I had to be induced because my amniotic fluid level was at a dangerous low. I also did it when breastfeeding didn't go as smoothly as I would've liked at first. So I'm sure you can guess that I did it when my first few days home I didn't get my house clean, heck I didn't even get the laundry caught up. I am constantly having to remind myself that I'm only human and I can't do it all.

9 comments:

Callie Nicole said...

What a blessing that you get to stay at home with your baby! I had to go back to work last week, and it stinks. :-/ I wish my boss was my four month old! Ha, ha! ;-)

Jami Balmet said...

It sounds like you are doing a great job! So wonderful that you are staying home. I dream of having kids and staying home one day :)

Mrs. Lukie said...

It sounds like you're getting things slowly figured out and getting a nice little routine going...yay!! :)

the workaholic momma said...

AAWW - don't beat yourself up. It sounds like you are doing an amazing job - housework can wait, memories can't:)

Brittney Galloway said...

haha, I loved your comment about netflix. I've literally watched every single movie and tv show we own since I started nursing and am out of new things to watch! Wish I could get netflix over here!

Mrs. S. said...

It is a whole new ballgame when the baby actually comes home. I know that the first 3 months were rough since I was home with him by myself. The house was never clean, the laundry would be done but not folded, dinner was not getting cooked, and I was in my pjs. It was rough, but it was a huge relief when I was able to go back to work because I could communicate with adults again!

Parker is now 4.5 months now and I am home with him all summer. It has been good being home now that he is interactive and fun. I know that I am definitely lacking in the adult interaction department again. It is all about balance, that's for sure!

Ashley D. said...

You are only human, and eventually you will get a routine, only to have her grow and change the game plan on you. My daughter is two and I still stay in PJ's until WAY to late in the day sometimes...so trust me, it doesn't change.

I hope you get that adult conversation you need. I started freelance writing to help me feel more "adult-ish" and I substitute teach during the school year so I can get out and put grown-up clothes on. You'll find your niche, but there is nothing more rewarding than staying at home with your child and getting to experience every milestone.

*big hug*

Lauren said...

So glad you're able to stay home with your sweet baby girl! And I love that you are so honest...I'm definitely going to need to remember these honest moments in a few months when I'm in your shoes!

Lindsay said...

Oh my goodness! I know EXACTLY what you are talking about! I keep telling my hub that my life today is SO DIFFERENT than my life one year ago! A good different, but still so different. :) I am so happy for you that you are able to stay home - it definitely isn't as "easy" as I thought it was, but oh so worth it!