Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Strangely Calm

So here we are less than a week away from Mrs. Oklahoma and I'm strangely calm. I have no pre-conceived notions going into competition I'm simply there to present the very best version of myself and if that's what the judges are looking for then I will do well. It's unusual for me to be this calm leading up to something I've worked really hard for, normally I am a ball of emotions and nerves.

However, I was sharing with a friend last night that in the past two weeks I feel like I've been given confirmation that I am in the right place at the right time in my life for this competition. I've grown so much as an individual in the last few years mostly because of huge life changes 1 being the birth of my daughter, and 2 being the death of my mother. I've learned a lot about myself and where I stand in my values, beliefs, and convictions.

I wrote a post here a few years ago called "Deeper" and I expressed my desire to know people more than just surface level I expressed my desires to really dive under the surface and see the real person hiding beneath the perfect facebook update. I believe that was my first real struggle with technology and it's ability to distance relationships. I feel like this has been welling up inside of me for years and God orchestrated everything for it to manifest in the form of a pageant platform. I've done the hard work of planning screen-free events, promoting the idea of technology guidelines to sometimes less than enthusiastic groups, and super pumped up groups. I've put the hours in at the gym, and I've done the fun work of picking out my wardrobe now it's just time to shine. I'm ready I'm so ready it scares me in the best way possible. I have no preconceived notions going into this weekend but I do know I'm as prepared as I can be.

It's all in God's hands now!

With A Smile,


1 comment:

Melanie said...

Can't wait to hear how it all goes!!