Thursday, September 13, 2012

Letting go to Let God.

It never ceases to amaze me how God works in our lives consistently behind the scenes working and weaving together in intricate detail exactly the path we will take. The last time I posted about our family dynamics my husband and I were learning what it meant to be a household in which both parents work and our child goes to daycare. Well alot has happened since then and I can't even begin to explain how much God's hand has been in every detail.

We did the double income daycare lifestyle for an excruciating 7 months. I hated only seeing our precious daughter a few hours each night, each morning and on weekends. Let me get one thing straight this is how I felt just me not some all being power saying daycare is evil blah blah just my momma heart and my desire to be more involved in my child's day to day life.

I began praying fervently about 4 months into our routine that something would change some way would be made available for me to spend more time taking care of my family and less time in the office. Then life got even more ridiculous as we added Saturday work to our schedules, hoping the extra income would help us to work more fervently toward the goal of me being home. It did help but it seemed like we kept getting hit with random stuff, and the money just wasn't working as hard as we wanted it to, not to mention we were constantly ill due to not eating well or resting as much as we needed.

All that changed about 2 weeks ago when I got offered a position with the wonderful organization we'd been working with on Saturdays. The hours were evening allowing me to be home during the day I'm off on Fridays and I work Saturday mornings. I've been at my new routine now for a little over 2 weeks and I'm loving every minute of being home with my princess and knowing that when I leave her it's daddy's turn to take over and I still get to contribute to the family income. Granted it's not 100% perfect Mr. A and I have to be very intentional about our couple time and Friday date night is sacred in our home. But the benefits far outweigh the negatives and right now this works for our family dynamic. It's an added bonus that I'm working for an organization I truly believe in. I get to be a part of strengthening families and marriages everyday and I feel like I am right where God wants me to be.

I prayed fervently for a bakery job but the more work I did from home the more I realized the joy in cake decorating for me was that it wasn't a job. I began to realize maybe God was leading me down a different path and as I surrendered my own dreams God awakened something bigger inside of me and I truly feel like I had to let go to Let God and I love where He has lead me.

Later Alligators....

Mrs. A

1 comment:

Melanie said...

So happy things worked out for you!!!!