I've seen all the obligatory 2012 was such a great year posts and I'm not going to lie 2012 was the hardest and worst year of my life! I wasso ready to kiss it goodbye and welcome a new year full of possibilities.
2012 started off really terrible being jobless, and losing my mother, only to have to find full time employment taking me away from my precious family for 7 long months where I felt as if all I did was simply survive. 2012 saw marriage struggles for Mr. A and I like never before we just couldn't seem to connect like we usually do for what seemed like forever, it also brought health issues for me in the form of anxiety. I am so OVER 2012!!
Don't get me wrong there were a few beautiful moments sprinkled in with the awful. There was a light at the end of the tunnel at the end of year it landed me in my current job doing my small part to strengthen families in Oklahoma everyday while also allowing me to be home with my precious girl during the days. I saw my little girls first birthday come and fly by and have been blessed to see her grow into an inquisitive and curious toddler with an infectious giggle and smile, I saw hardships in my marriage that seemed like forever while they were happening but now that they are over I have a renewed appreciation and love for my husband. Most of all I found ways to cope with the loss of my mother, I began plans for a garden and have worked hard over the summer and fall of this last year preparing our flower beds for a beautiful garden my tangible way to honor my mom's memory as she loved beautiful flowers, I began writing in my actual journal again but neglected my blog, I turned to the Lord in ways I'd never done before bringing Him the broken pieces of my heart to help me put back together again and oh how He did. I saw my little girl's 2nd Christmas and chose to feel the joy of the miracles of Christmas instead of the pain in the void of my mother. Surprisingly the Holidays which I had been dreading themost gave me an odd sense of comfort. I have one more milestone to cross before I can really close the book on 2012 and that is the 1st Anniversary of my mother's passing it is coming up in 5 short days. I plan to spend the day blessing others. I do not have a list of goals to share, or resolutions that I made I simply resolve to live each day to it's fullest and to savor the little things. So welcome 2013 a new year full of possibilities. I am hoping next year I'll be able to write one of those "What a Great Year" posts.