Saturday, May 10, 2014

So...I'm a mom and I'm not a fan of Mother's Day!

There I said it. Mother's Day is probably my least favorite day of the year. Don't get me wrong I truly believe moms should be honored, but the truth is I spend the week before and the actual day missing what I don't have anymore.

There are times I feel like I've gotten a handle on this new normal life without my mom around, but mother's day leaves me with this big aching pain every year. I spend the week before avoiding all the advertisements about hugging your mom, or remembering to tell your mom how much she means to you. I just spend all my time thinking "I wish I could" I'd give anything for five minutes with my mom. She used to say that she was convinced if she could spend 5 minutes with her mom she could balance the national debt, create world peace, and feed the hungry. I never understood that when she was alive but now I completely do. There are times when going through something tough I think "if I could just talk to mom it would all be ok"

There was one advertisement in particular this year that caused me much sadness. It simply stated "A picture with mom is worth a thousand words" I couldn't help but be teary eyed at that one because I simply didn't take pictures with my mom when she was sick it was hard to see her like that and I didn't want to remember her sick. However I'd give anything for any pictures of me as an adult with my mom. I have a few but not many and well my plea to all of you out there is take the time make the memory and for goodness sake take the photo. You'll regret when she's gone if you don't I can promise you that.

so Happy Mother's Day Mom! I hope you enjoy your day at the feet of Jesus!

Mom's First OKC Relay For Life!

The day I became a mom!

Mom's last Relay For Life, we didn't know when we took this picture she wouldn't be here to take one the next year.
 to the mom who's babies aren't with her, to the mom who's babies don't seem to care, to the woman who desperately wants to be a mom but hasn't become one yet, to the grieving mom who's lost a child, to the child who's not on good terms with mom,  and finally to the grieving daughter/son who's lost their own mother you are not alone I see you I feel your pain and I love you! 

This Mother's Day I beg you don't forget us broken ones the one's who's smiles are forced, who choke back tears at every sweet reference to mom, and especially the moms who smile and say thank you when you tell them Happy Mother's Day when all they really want to do is break down and cry.

I pray for peace for each person who may be hurting this Mother's Day that you don't face it alone that others will surround you and hold you up through this tough day!

Until Next Time,

Mrs. A

1 comment:

Melanie said...

Love you! My heart breaks for those who have lost their mothers. Our pastors wife lost her mother a little while ago and she was having a hard time in church this past heart broke for her.