So back in September I was told about an opening at a fantastic well known established specialty bakery here in Oklahoma City for a position as a Sugar Artist-AKA Cake decorator (you know that thing I do on the side occasionally). I applied for but never dreamed I would actually get the job but to my surprise and utter joy I was offered the job on the spot. Me Mrs. A I was now a professional sugar artist working with some of the top people in the business! It was in a word AMAZING I wanted to get up and go to work everyday except I had Sundays, Mondays, and Thursdays off it was a nice balance of playtime with my sweet girl and playtime at work! Life was grand I felt blessed beyond measure and like I'd finally found my home.
Fast forward to the first day of December we had an employee meeting to discuss Christmas procedures and during that meeting we were told that the buyer who had signed the contract for purchasing the bakery had backed out and now there are no other options but to close and we would be doing so on Christmas Eve. So basically I am unemployed on Christmas Eve and I am losing the most amazing job I have ever had.
At first I was shocked, then I was angry not with the owner but with God I wanted to know why He allowed me to experience such a gift of having a job that I love doing what I love just to take it away. But then I remembered something our Pastor had said the Sunday before we were talking about Thanksgiving of course and how easy it is to be thankful during the blessings but how much more of a witness are we making to others when we are thankful in our greatest disappointments, our biggest heartaches, and our broken dreams. I felt like my dream of one day owning my own bakery had been taken from me stomped on and thrown in the garbage but somehow I had to be thankful.
It was not easy not even a little bit the hardest thing I ever had to do was pray thanking God for breaking my dream, it would have been so much easier to blame Him and become angry and cynical. Then I realized that wouldn't do much for His Glory and that wouldn't do much for my spirit. I now realizing God didn't break my dream He is simply molding me into what He wants me to be. Although I am thankful it is a difficult pill to swallow I struggle everyday with feelings of why but I understand God has a much bigger plan and just like He's done before someday I will look back and it will all be clear. So for now I have to trust that He sees the bigger picture and He has a plan for me and I just have to listen and follow.
We have chosen as a family to focus on Christmas and all of it's wonderful goodness and making it the most special Christmas we can since it's our baby girl's first, then after that we'll figure out what is going to happen from here. So I am taking Christmas one day at a time cherishing the time I have left at the bakery and praying about my next steps in life.
"Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you"
1 Thessalonians 5:18