Monday, December 26, 2011

Merry & Bright

Christmas 2011 was a bittersweet day for me as it's probably the last I'll have with my mama see we've stopped all chemo because her body stopped responding to it so she's staying as comfortable as possible and letting the cancer take it's course. It's hard to watch but I know it's what is best. It was also however the best day because it was my first time to experience Christmas as a mama, my sweet baby girl enjoyed her day immensely even if she was more interested in the wrapping paper and boxes than the actual gifts :).

Hope your Christmas Holiday was MERRY & BRIGHT!

checking out the tree Christmas morning.

ready for Christmas Eve Service with mom and dad.

probably the last picture I'll ever have of Carys with my mom bittersweet moment.

playing with Christmas lights. (mommy note:this is a staged photo I don't let my child just play with electrical lights).

with Grandma A on Christmas Day.

she tried eating all her presents 

with daddy at Grandpa's church for Christmas morning service

and our joy filled mantel with 3 stockings such a blessing to take this photograph and being a family of 3 this Christmas!

I am immensely blessed and had a beautiful day gifts were given and I got some lovely things but my favorite gift was the treasured moments of being mommy for the first time at Christmas :)

May 2012 bring many blessings to all!

Later Alligators...

Mrs. A

Friday, December 9, 2011

The (job) Situation

before we begin no my title is not a Jersey Shore reference! it is the story of how in four months I landed the single greatest job on earth (err at least for me) and then lost it.

So back in September I was told about an opening at a fantastic well known established specialty bakery   here in Oklahoma City for a position as a Sugar Artist-AKA Cake decorator (you know that thing I do on the side occasionally). I applied for but never dreamed I would actually get the job but to my surprise and utter joy I was offered the job on the spot. Me Mrs. A I was now a professional sugar artist working with some of the top people in the business! It was in a word AMAZING I wanted to get up and go to work everyday except I had Sundays, Mondays, and Thursdays off it was a nice balance of playtime with my sweet girl and playtime at work! Life was grand I felt blessed beyond measure and like I'd finally found my home. 

Fast forward to the first day of December we had an employee meeting to discuss Christmas procedures and during that meeting we were told that the buyer who had signed the contract for purchasing the bakery had backed out and now there are no other options but to close and we would be doing so on Christmas Eve. So basically I am unemployed on Christmas Eve and I am losing the most amazing job I have ever had.

At first I was shocked, then I was angry not with the owner but with God I wanted to know why He allowed me to experience such a gift of having a job that I love doing what I love just to take it away. But then I remembered something our Pastor had said the Sunday before we were talking about Thanksgiving of course and how easy it is to be thankful during the blessings but how much more of a witness are we making to others when we are thankful in our greatest disappointments, our biggest heartaches, and our broken dreams. I felt like my dream of one day owning my own bakery had been taken from me stomped on and thrown in the garbage but somehow I had to be thankful. 

It was not easy not even a little bit the hardest thing I ever had to do was pray thanking God for breaking my dream, it would have been so much easier to blame Him and become angry and cynical. Then I realized that wouldn't do much for His Glory and that wouldn't do much for my spirit. I now realizing God didn't break my dream He is simply molding me into what He wants me to be. Although I am thankful it is a difficult pill to swallow I struggle everyday with feelings of why but I understand God has a much bigger plan and just like He's done before someday I will look back and it will all be clear. So for now I have to trust that He sees the bigger picture and He has a plan for me and I just have to listen and follow. 

We have chosen as a family to focus on Christmas and all of it's wonderful goodness and making it the most special Christmas we can since it's our baby girl's first, then after that we'll figure out what is going to happen from here. So I am taking Christmas one day at a time cherishing the time I have left at the bakery and praying about my next steps in life. 

"Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you" 
1 Thessalonians 5:18

Later Alligators.....

Mrs. A

Thursday, December 8, 2011


Ok well I am officially the most terrible blogger in the entire world! I thought briefly of deleting my blog all together. I thought about starting completely over and then I decided that this is my blog and well I tried to be something I am not with the last posts what I thought would be a good project to help me out with my PPD turned into a nightmare in which I felt guilty for not posting so much that I avoided my blog. So big lesson learned I am just not that type of blogger. I am a journal blogger and I am OK with that. So this is me coming back to the blogging world after a several month hiatus over the period of that time my sweet baby has turned into a crawling machine and started pulling up and cruising she is quickly becoming less and less a baby and more and more a big girl!

pic taken at 8 months old during our family photo session

In the course of the last few months I've started a great job at a wonderful bakery basically living my dream decorating cakes. Sadly I've learned recently I am going to lose this wonderful job because the bakery is closing on Christmas Eve. It's a very long story and there's a lot to be said that I just don't have the words for right now. I am sad but also at peace there will be other bakeries in my future. More on this story soon I promise.

So although I'm a TERRIBLE with a capital T blogger I am not ready to give up my little piece of the internet to capture my thoughts no matter how random or sporadic. I'm a momma I have a very active 9 month old blogging time is late at night or not at all and sometimes I choose the extra sleep, but I miss my little journal when I don't write. I often feel like I have a lot to say and nowhere to say it. Sorry for the randomness that is my posting but I never claimed to blog for anyone but myself. Although I'd love to be a blogger who could do a 30 day or year long series, I am just not. I am just me a 26 year old mama wanting to express my own thoughts and actions. I am not going to make grand promises about blogging but it seems to come in spurts so you may see me again in a few days. Then again life may take over again. 

I hope this Christmas Season finds everyone well and happy I know there are babies set to make their arrival soon from a few of my fave blogger buddies and I wish you well with your new bundles of joy. 
I am looking forward to catching up on all the blog stories I have missed.

Later Alligators...

Mrs. A