What's going on in my head Wednesday

I heard a song on the radio this morning and was late to work because I literally had to pull over because I was blinded by tears. It hit me so hard I felt like God was punching me in the stomach saying this is especially for you now please listen.

The song is "The Motions" by Matthew West.

Lyrics:
"This might hurt, It’s not safe, But I know that I got to make a change, I don’t care if I break, Least I’ll be feeling something,

Because just okay, is not enough, Help me fight through the nothingness of this life,

I don’t want to go through the motions, I don’t want to go one more day, Without Your all consuming, Passion inside of me, I don’t want to spend my whole life askin’, What if I had given everything? Instead of going through the motions,

No regrets, not this time, Gonna let me heart defeat my mind, Let your love make me whole, I think I’m finally feeling something,

Because Just okay, is not enough, Help me fight through the nothingness of this life,

Cause I, don’t want to go through the motions, I don’t want to go one more day, Without Your all consuming, Passion inside of me, I don’t want to spend my whole life askin’, What if I had given everything? Instead of going through the motions,

(Take me all the way), Take me all the way, (Take me all the way), Because I don’t want to go through the motions, (Take me all the way), Now I’m finally feeling something, (Take me all the way)

I don’t want to go through the motions"

Powerful words huh?

This song literally made me bawl my eyes out because the truth of the matter is I've been skating by on just reading my Bible and going to church and my heart has been telling me for a while it's not enough.

Sure I have prayer time but I don't really focus on being in God's presence. I don't want to be just another church going Christian. I want to be on fire for the Lord. I've been hitting my snooze button in the mornings instead of getting up and doing my devotional and I've been neglecting my prayer life. I've been using the excuses of we don't have a church home and I have insomnia to get out of doing my part in furthering my Christian walk. I often sit back and wait for God to do great things for me when I should be pursuing Him and asking what great things can I do for You?

Nothing like a song on the radio that makes you cry your eyes out to realize that God is speaking to you. Sometimes I believe that God knows at times (more often than I would like to admit)this is the only way to truly shake me.

Do any of you ever have moments like that where you feel as though God is hitting you over the head with something and say hey you listen to me!!!


I am making the choice today to not hit snooze in the morning and truly take my mornings to be in His presence, and to ask what great things can I do for my Great God?

"The early hours are of particular importance in shaping our day. Morning is a holy time. A chance to start again. A time to expect the best from God. An opportunity to search for and focus on the good news:
-Anonymous


more later......

Love,
Mrs. A