First let me express my sincere gratitude for your comments on my last post it was definitely not hard to leave "ugly land" with all of your kind comments. I'm so thankful for this little blog and all the amazing people I've come across through it.
Yesterday I went and visited that doctor that all women must see once a year and be uncomfortable for a few minutes blech. Anyway alls well except my weight. My weight has dropped pretty drastically from the time she last saw me to now and she's concerned about it being way too low for a 24 year old woman. She says my weight would be good for a 15 year old with my frame but not me. My doc was very firm but sweet about it we were laughing about crazy dog antics and she got a real serious look on her face and said "ok missy, I've got to get stern with you" I knew what was coming I'm no stranger to the you're underweight discussion.
I guess I just wanted to post about this because often times I feel uncomfortable sharing my troubles with gaining weight because most women look at me and say "oh geeze I wish I had your problems". I really want people to know it is a problem it is painful and it can be just as difficult as losing weight can be. I want nothing more than to be a normal weight and not worry about my bones being broken because there's no meat to cushion the blow, or cry from being called anorexic or bulemic knowing full well that I'm not either one of those things.
I'm starting a protein shake diet in the afternoons to try to gain weight successfully and I'm also on a calcium supplement to strengthen my bones. So I urge you dear beautiful blog friends the next time you see a little thin person don't be so quick to judge that they're anorexic or bulemic, and please for the love of all things beautiful do not think there's something wrong with you.
I abhor the comment I wish I was your size let me emphatically say "NO YOU DON'T" it sucks trying to find clothing that makes me look my age instead of like a teenager and when you don't finish your plate of food people automatically assume you have an eating disorder. I would give anything to be a normal size and not have to hunt for clothing or explain that I'm just not hungry enough to finish my food.
Please love your body for what it is all shapes, sizes, and even things we consider flaws are beautiful. My weight has always been a thorn for me because I feel like I've spent my life explaining it to people. I'm learning through God's goodness to except my thorns but sometimes I just have to get things off my heart.
I hope you all are having fabulous weeks!