Hi Bloggie world,
My house thanks you for the love it has received and all the comment compliments. Mr. A and I just love it and still get giddily excited when we turn the corner into our housing addition :) There's a lot of work to be done and we decided we're painting our trim in the whole house so stay tuned for house project updates. Exciting things and sad things have happened since I last wrote so bare with me this will be a hodge podge kind of post.
First off I got offered a job teaching cake decorating part time I am so excited about this opportunity and a chance to turn something I love and adore into a paying gig :) I'll keep my full time job for now but Mr. A and I both agree that I could easily transition in the next few years as young ones come along into only working part time. I can't help but see God's hand in the offer I received as it came from no where after I'd had a disappointing rejection from a job I'd applied for and really wanted. Obviously God had different plans and His Will is always perfect and I think He's working on perfecting that lesson within me. I am so thankful for this opportunity and beyond thrilled at the chance to work in a field that I have fallen in love with.
Now on to the sadness I received a text from a dear old friend I hadn't actually spoken to other than through FB yesterday and he told me that a woman with whom at one time I had been good friends with lost her mother over the weekend. I am so sad for her and am sure she is hurting. However what my friend said next shook me he said "it's a shame that it takes a heartache like someone losing a parent in order for old friends to find the time to reconnect" how true are those words?
Let me back up and explain I grew up in a tiny town in western Oklahoma one of those towns that if you aren't careful you get stuck in. All I knew at the young age I was when I left was that I wanted out I wanted more for my life than to be stuck in that tiny town. So the summer I graduated highschool I packed up and left and swore I'd never look back I cut ties with relationships I'd had since I was 5 giving only a select few my contact info and eventually I even lost contact with those select few.
Even to this day I wouldn't want to live in that small town or have my children grow up there but as I look back I am ashamed and asking myself what gave me the right to decide that those people weren't good enough for me to keep in contact with because somewhere in my 18 year old brain that's what I had decided. I lost contacts with people I at one time truly cared about and all I can think now as I near 25 is how wrong of me to just wipe people from my memory. Sure I moved on in life and I don't regret leaving my hometown to attend school I do regret the way I left and the decisions I made to lose contact with people whether consciously or not.
I'm not sure what the point of my post was here except to get out what I have been feeling since that text and then later the phone call with my very dear friend. But I guess that's why we all write blogs to put into words what we're just not sure how to express.
Thanks for listening to my rambling today.