just some thoughts as I struggle with my own heart

There is something about the floor of a bedroom that beckons its inhabitant to break down.

Isn't it silly how one can get caught up in the trivial things of life.
desiring the most extravagant surroundings,
longing for the trendiest vehicle in order to watch the scenery go by,
deciding what social outing to R.S.V.P to,
and so on and so forth.


What does it even matter . . . sure it's important . . . for the moment.

But what about for eternity?

Nothing that will happen in the next hour or so holds any importance at that moment when one's knees touch the carpet.

All dreams and desires,

All fears and discomforts,

They all are stripped away and you are just alone.

The realization of how small you are and how someone...anything bigger is needed to come to the rescue is the only truth that can be held.

The light is off.
It's dark.
No one can see you.
No one, but The Almighty, can hear you.

As soon as you're alone the tears begin to fall into their familiar puddle.

They've been longing to be set free once again and now is their time.


Back to the floor.

Many life changing moments happen on that floor.

Life and Death.

The majorities choose life, but only enough to keep them afloat for tomorrow.
Not enough to sustain them throughout the rough waters that will constantly beat against the shore of their lifetime.

Some make the decision to deny the call/purpose/destiny on their life for the fear that it is too cumbersome and will get in the way of "their" plans. These are the foolish.


Some will choose to cast their burden of heaviness for a lighter load. This is mostly what the floor is used for and if you have not traded your heavy load for the later... Please Do.

Others,
the few,
kneel down with the utmost sincerity and hand their life over to be broken, molded, and used for a greater purpose.

Those few (most Followers feel that they fall in this category. not true.) go through the most excruciating/glorious process of their life.

EVERYTHING that was ever known to be true is shaken.
ALL THINGS are stripped away.
TEARS are constant due to the battle between spirit and flesh.

And, DON'T DARE BE MISTAKEN; it is a mighty battle that is fought.

Life is lived underneath everything that is seen and felt in the temporal world.
The entrance to another realm opens and everything has purpose and meaning deeper than any sermon ever laid ear to.

The senses are heightened.
Love is felt more deeply and Truth stabs one like an arrow anywhere that it is not revered with the greatest esteem. Wisdom and Understanding are the greatest companions and all who posses the two are eagerly welcomed.

Once that decision is made there is absolutely no turning back.
It just can't happen, for The Glory is felt in the greatest capacity ever known and to give that up would be greater than death itself.

Daffodil Days

I am selling daffodils for American Cancer Society. So if anyone needs pretty flowers or an adorable teddy bear to brighten their day I'm the girl to call.

Wednesday=mid week slump

Ugh there are so many reasons that I have a love/hate relationship with Wednesdays.
I love Wednesdays because it's church night and I get to fellowship with my friends and hear God's word. I hate Wednesday's because it is the middle of the week and I always feel rushed to accomplish whatever is left before Friday, and more work always seems to pile on to my plate on Wednesdays. However I am continuing to stay positive and just get things done. It has become a sort of weird game with me to challenge myself to see how much I can accomplish in one day. (I know I've got to be one of the biggest dorks ever).
My relay meeting went well last night and I am so freaking excited about Saturday I've never presented at a Relay University event before and I am so glad to be given this great opportunity.
In kitchen news my baked pork chops were great last night and I am excited that I finally feel like I am cooking decent meals. However we desperately need to go grocery shopping we are all out of veggies.
Oh I am selling daffodils for Daffodil Days a fundraiser put on by American Cancer Society. So if you need any pretty flowers let me know.

Mrs. A

SO PUMPED

Ok so last night's class was AMAZING. It is so great to combine two things that I really adore. Our Bible study is on Esther which is by far one of my favorite books in the Bible. I tell you what she was one incredible woman to have endured everything that she did. My mother in law is such a great leader and I love her kind nature in the way she teaches it was truly a blessing. We are making sheppard's pie next week and I am so excited. This is really going to be a fun, educational time that I really think I'll look forward to every week. YAY a reason to make Monday's not so horrible.
In other news I am making pork chops tonight and I am excited about it especially with my new found freedom in cooking.
So I think it's time for an update on all my projects/goals I set at the beginning of the month.

1. stay positive with my job: you know what how you feel about something really is directly affected by how you react to different situations. I now feel like I am a strong contributing part of my business, and that what I do matters. This excites me.

2. Focus on the positive in my life: this is such an easy thing to do whenever I take a good look around me and see all the good things that are right in front of me, oh sure I've had my moments of doubt and self pity, but I know that I have more than most have or will ever find in their life, in that I have a wonderful loving family, a husband that I am truly deeply in love with, I am healthy (for the most part), and even though my finances aren't perfect I can pay my bills. These are things I should definitely be thankful for.

3. learn to sew: ok i haven't done a whole lot with this one other than I found a free e-book that outlines the basics. Hopefully I'll be able to really get going with this one before too long

4. become a better cook: how can I not become a better cook with such a great class on Monday nights.

5. be on time: well I was doing great til this morning, I woke up late because I fell asleep on the couch after having woken up, so I was late for work. Eak, but I really have been doing well other than today.

6. stay organized: I think I'm doing pretty well here, I organize my desk before I leave each night, I make my bed every morning if I can remember which has been a lot lately, and the dishes get done as soon as meals are over so all in all not terrible but definitely could do more.

7. strive to make our apt. a comfortable and loving home: I think I'm still learning exactly what this means, but I am starting to realize it is not something you can create but something that must be felt in the heart.

8. take up scrapbooking more regularly: I haven't gotten to do this as much as I would like but I have gotten a good start on some wedding lay outs I can't wait to really dig deep into it one of these weekends.

9. do cardio twice a week: well I have been playing outside with Missy in the mornings but that's about it I definitely need to step up my game on this one.

10. finish wedding scrapbook by April: I really need to get going if I want to finish by April I only have 3 lay outs done and no pictures yet.

Well I think I'm doing ok with my new year's goals but not great I could definitely be doing better. Sometimes I just wish there were more hours in the day, or at least that I needed less sleep. Oh well I'll update again in a few weeks.
Thanks for reading my self check up and evaluation.

Mrs. A

Weekends are too short!

Well I am back at work today after what seemed to be an all too short weekend, Saturday I didn't really do much of anything but a little bit of housework, then Saturday night my husband and I had date night we went to the pool hall and played a few games of pool and a few games of air hockey of course I got beat all but one game of pool but it was still fun. Sunday church and worked on my next week's sunday school lesson, did laundry, went to choir practice, then to evening church.
We had a wonderful pot roast for dinner last night that I was so excited about I did my own spices instead of using pre packaged ones and it was very tasty.

Tonight is the first night of my cooking/Bible study class and I am so excited. I don't know which is more exciting the prospect of cooking with two women who really know how to cook or the thought of starting a new Bible study which always excites me.
Tuesday I have a Relay for Life meeting to discuss the Big presentation at Relay University this coming Saturday.
Wednesday I have to work on my presentation for Relay University.
Thursday I have an open house at work for potential employees, then I have plans to scrapbook when I get home.
Friday is well Friday I plan on finish up my ACS presentation, doing some scrapbooking, and working on some projects for my Sunday school lesson.
Saturday is of course Relay University from 9-3 I am so excited about this, then I plan on doing housework the rest of the afternoon so I don't have to do it on Sunday.

I have a full week but it's not too terribly crazy. I have a feeling things are only going to get crazier as spring approaches.