I have been so busy at work lately just getting everything done for the end of the year. It's been a little crazy and then this week it just sort of stopped. I'm sure there are things I could and should be doing but you know how sometimes before a Holiday you don't really want to do anything at work. There are so many fun Christmas parties and things I want to focus on so work is lacking to say the least. Sometimes I get to the point I just don't want to do anything and I think that's where I am at right now. Sometimes my work is just so draining and I feel like it sucks the life right out of me. I want so badly to have a job that I truly love and enjoy and someday I will but right now I'm stuck where I am. Oh it's not all bad I have made some very good friends with some of my co-workers, and sometimes I enjoy doing what I do. But most of the time I find myself wishing for a job that I could do more in. I have a very ambitious nature and to be stuck behind a desk and not feel like I'm living to my potential is very frustrating. Anyway just a small vent for today. I have to try and make myself work. Then at least it's Christmas weekend so in all reality things could be worse. One of my goals for the new year is to not let my work stress me out to the point that I don't want to do anything or even care if it gets done. I am praying for strength as I know there is a reason God has placed me here and there is a reason that even though I've been unhappy I am still here. I'm just not sure what that reason is. I am sure in time God will reveal it to me he always does. In the meantime I will try to focus more on the positive things in my life like my wonderful loving family, amazing husband, incredible friends,and guidance from God. So I guess I've officially started to name my new years resolutions here's the first 2.
1. Don't let my job stress me out to the point that i don't want to do it
2. Focus on positive things in my life more than negative
Well there's 2 I am sure the list will continue to grow and since I'm posting my resolutions here I will have to be held accountable for them.
In other news, Pizza casserole was interesting last night I'm not sure if it came out exactly like it was supposed to but it was good anyway. Relay party and meeting tonight and I am so pumped. I have finally decided what I am getting Jeremiah for Christmas.YAY!!! Anyway I also got my first lay out designed for my wedding scrapbook last night it was exciting and I have to say it turned out pretty good if I can figure out how to post it for all to see I will.
One more thing I would like to have more commenters on my blog I know there are at least a few of you out there reading so just comment for me sometime.