Thursday, October 1, 2009

the post I didn't want to write

Well mom's appointment didn't bring us the wonderful news we were hoping for in fact quite the opposite actually. We discovered that even the 4 aggressive weeks of chemo didn't hardly make any change in her condition and her spleen is enlarged so much that it's pushing on her lungs. Her doctor who by the way is fabulous and very kind seems to think the best solutions is a technique called radioimmunotherapy which is a long name for the utilization of radiation with antibodies. It's a very involved and complicated treatment. Mom took it rather well all things considered. All I wanted to do when the doctor said there had been no change was to burst into tears and scream and cry and blame God. But I knew I had to be strong for mom so the minute I dropped her off safely at home and got back in the car I tried to let the tears fall and they wouldn't come I feel nothing but numbness at the moment. Please continue to pray for my mom and her doctors. Her team lead is Dr. Bose and he's really nice.

In other much more upbeat news I received my very first blog award. I feel so honored I'll be posting about that but probably not until tomorrow I need to take my evening to process the day.


Later Alligators....

Mrs. A

7 comments:

Cupcakes with Nic said...

Oh no -- what horrible news. You and your mother sound very strong - you are in my thoughts and prayers...

magnoliabelle said...

I'm so sorry. I'll continue to keep you all in my prayers!

CJ said...

oh hun, I'm so sorry you and your family didn't get the news you were hoping for. I will continue to pray and think of you!

Mrs.LifeAccounts said...

Oh, I'm so sorry! I will definitely be keeping you and your family in my prayers! A friend of our family was just diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and they call it orphan cancer as they can't even figure out where it started...

Kelsey @ Seattle Smith's said...

Such a disappointment -- praying for ya!

Jax said...

I am so very sorry. I will definitely keep you and your family in my prayers. I couldnt imagine how hard it is to be so strong for your mom right now.. you're a really good daughter and a great person. Doctors don't know everything. Keep that in mind. I know that from personal experience with my family.. so no matter what, keep your head high and hopes up. Sending blog hugs.

Kristin said...

I am so sorry for the struggles your Mom is going through. My prayers are with your family.!